Never Look Back long long time ago before the wind before the snow lived an old and aging man who lost his friend he carried by his side all the things he had in life left all the things that troubled him behind he was once in a desperate need for attention and so much more living his life with the question of conception there is no more no more feeling sorry and no more getting mad yeah right! You got the answer through the years he came to know sometimes its better to let it go and never look back no matter what they said and then the ones he learned to ignore the ones who always asked for more secretly respect the life that he led My Wall a middle class mom crouches on the hill eyes behind binoculars she sits so still spots a boy going under the freeway whispers in her radio going for the kill open your eyes! You're fighting kids who only want to make their mark everything else you took away you left them in the dark open your eyes! Your war is not about beauty it's about rights and choice speech isn't free it is only for those who can afford to raise their voice say it is pollution they say it is a sin mobilize their force to stop the demon within they say it is not a battle it is a full scale war recruiting volunteers like never before say it is so ugly they say it is an eyesore but remember they're the ones who build department stores put ads on the benches signs on the windows asphalt where the grass used to grow Old Man you tell me of a place where everybody knew their neighbors all the families helped each other and no one ever locked their doors you tell me no one locked their doors old man please stay a while I know at first I seemed too busy but now i'll make the time stay and tell me one more story tell me about the time you ditched school to go fishing you thought the branch would hold your neighbor pulled you from the river he helped you wash your clothes and stitch the hole in your trousers and your mom never knew why he giggled when he saw you a place where no one locks their doors a place where no one locks their doors you tell me that you would show me only now it is too late I would like to build community only now it is too late things can never be the way they were before you can't go back to how things were before once the trust is gone once the trust is gone once the trust is gone you'll lock the door I can imagine that life but it seems so far from real it's just like a story that's the kind of life i've never known old man you're leaving now taking with you things i've never known I wonder where you're going and if it would be like your old home I hope you find the place you're looking for Fade Away keep on playing me i'm not a toy i'm different from everyone else lies are what you believe in promises that you'll never keep don't tell me stories of your pastime glories they've faded away with the sun faded away i'm flying high above the gray see it on the floor beneath my feet can't control what's out of my hands the river looks so deep and I don't want to swim in the muddy waters that you offer me i'm not going to waste no more of the good life watching you fade away hands on a watch turn like the wheels on a train and the days turn to weeks the months seem the same look at all the bullshit that surrounds me plastic people different countries speak different words they're all the same life for them is just a game I want a way out but i'm stuck here I need an excuse to be myself again how long will I have to wait just fading away faded away i'm sitting in the back because it's where I belong I don't say anything just try to get along on to the runway to catch another plane i'm going back home to be myself again World's Best Dad they tell you there were better days you can't remember through the haze this is the only life you've ever known they sigh and talk about fist fights when you could go to sleep at night without avengers tearing out your wishbone you pray to god and wonder just who's up there what kind of father would leave his kids alone in a world where you're lucky if your mom cares hordes of people call the streets their home they want to take away the guns you want to get some bigger ones your defense is up to you and you alone they think that they can stop the heat but they don't understand the street you don't want your girl crying on your tombstone living in that memory don't understand what they see so they pay cops to make it yesterday you can't push back the hands of time you want to know and keep on trying do your best to stay out of there way Co-Song we've been hiding out forever waiting to release all our energy that's still inside it's time to get it out get it out of me something new I want to make this time special something for you playing as hard as we can grind out the energy I want to scream again so you can hear me singing through my hands release it let it go let it go we've found away to make up for the lost time turn it up and play it loud grind out the energy Closer to Gray clawing his way out of the doldrums getting sick and tired of coke and rums we'll just have to wait and see because he's jumped on the wagon before only to crawl and beg for more his pride is just another casualty his pride is just another casualty can you see beyond today's euphoric state do you remember how you'll feel tomorrow all the people that you hate all the times you've had to wait every piece of food you ever ate reminds you of your fate he's clawing his way out of a paper bag reaching for the life that he never had and he's just one step away he's going backwards on a two track he's going one step forward and two steps back getting closer to gray in the end there's only grieving all his goals inside pulled thin air can you blame him if he's desperate there's nothing left for him to get and he doesn't care that the people stare and they do fucking stare Final Hours I knew the day would come maybe this would be the one where I would say goodbye i've tried to understand the law of supply and demand but it does no good to wonder why I wonder if my number is really up this time there were other times before when I thought it was over somehow I made it this far won't be lucky forever these could be the final hours I wish I could say I feel more than fear and bitterness i've given you everything I had maybe I could have gave more all I can do is wait and see if these are my final i'm waiting just waiting to see are these my final hours you're so afraid of how you look and what they think of you don't you know what really matters it's not you say it's what you do you make me laugh when you demand respect I only give respect when respect is due you're just a gambler politician chairman of the board corporate suck ass playing the odds gambling with lives that to you are no more than numbers and statistics Muffled I thought we solved this problem long ago I thought we grew up but we still need to grow somehow it rained on our common ground now when dig in we slip around I hear the sarcasm in your voice think of all the times you made me wait without thinking without trying I make that face the face you fucking hate it's always been this way between you and me can we ever change is this how it has to be we try to patch things up but it's not the same we try to show respect it's too late in the game can you take me back to yesterday so I can say all the things I didn't say maybe times were tough and maybe things were worse but I don't remember it that way the times the wasted times there are times when we seem so strong then we forget that we don't get along some of these times are not in a bar I can't believe that we made it this far hmmm I can't believe that we made it this far Broken Bubble so you noticed that your city changed the old familiar roads now seem so strange can you believe that there's paint on the walls kids are murdered in the high school halls wake up kid and stop your whining every silver cloud has a black lining the world hasn't changed it just broke your bubble now you see you can't hide from trouble you were raised in the suburbs mom and dad gave you the best the referee has left the field and you've all alone to face this test do you have the strength to maintain your precious values are you in control of your own fate or will you become one of those guys you used to hate sooner or later everyone wants the best and your private world becomes like all the rest nothing is worse it's just touching you for the first time you see the world zoo it's not a question of staying alive you don't have to fuck over others to survive the question is what's good enough how much do you need to stop being tough Dying Duck in a Thunder Storm you heard the warnings saw the signs do you still think we left you behind don't you remember how we tried another place another time without reason without rhyme can you imagine life without your pride you look up at me with those hurt puppy dog eyes I never meant to hurt you i'm sorry that I had to be the one to tell you that you screwed up for the last time I know that there were times before when I said I would be there that's when I thought the choice was mine but now i've lived and I know better promises were never meant to be because I couldn't see that the things you thought you'd change you had no will to rearrange so you made a liar out of me what else can I say i'm sorry it turned out this way do you think we'll ever be the same it'd still call you my friend but to you it is the end I know you think that i'm the one to blame Think of Tomorrow looking in the mirror what's left to see fragments of life all the pieces are broken the skyways open to conquer the moon i'm going to get there just watch me maybe tomorrow i'll think of tomorrow inspiring words the dali lama prays for us oppressor and friend human understanding we can build a better world oceans of wisdom speak out loud we'll think of tomorrow tomorrow's children come out and play when I have a kid of my own what will I teach him prepare him to be all alone because someday he'll be all alone I have tried all my life to find the answers but the only truth is what you feel inside what's inside when will we ever get along I sit by wondering environmental consciousness you heard it all before the present time is our future think think of tomorrow tomorrow's children come out and play Pete's Farm baaaah, mooooo, cluck, snort, etc.
TEN FOOT POLE: Walkin Let me take you to a place no one's ever seen. It's so far it's so far away, back in deep behind the trees. I know that I won't fall. It's been there a hundred years. I know that it won't fall. Trust the limbs are here. One more time I'm telling you. Walk where you won't fall. We're almost there. Come on follow me, to that fotrtrss in the sky. And I'm going to take you there. To the place, the place that no one's ever seen. The moss grows on the north side of the trees. I know that it won't fall it's been there a hundred years. I know that it won't fall. Trust the limbs are here. Walk through the forrest at night. Tunnel's End Yeah I 've heard that before but not someone as close as you. I've tried to stay clear of the hate that surrounds us. It hurts my ears. And I can't say you have no right to feel that way, all burned up inside. But I can try to change your mind. Listen to me or should I say goodbye??? Fear & resentment. And you should see the face you wear. I wouldn't be here if you didn't care. You're the same as the people around us. I feel your pain. And I can't say you have no right to feel that way, all burned up inside. But I can help you to find the things you need, the ties that bind. Everytime I hear that sound of that little sigh that brings me down inside, I cry 'cause I don't know why I can't make you happy. Yourself's a prisoner of lifes injustice. All that baggage is slowing you down. And I've heard that word before but not from someone as close as you. I tried to stay clear of the hate that surrounds us, it hurts my ears. Gnarly Charlie By the time you hear this song it'll be over. Narlie Charlie's back again. He's wearing a goatee. Doesn't look the way he did five years before on the streets again and knocking on my door. Only come out at night when the lights are out and no one's around. The streets are his to take. It's uncle Charlie's first playground. Don't you know he will find you in your sleep and rip through rip through you. Why don't you leave me alone. Why don't you stay away from me. He doesn't value time on the outside. Hes' just looking in on top of the world. Today see Charlie's coming back again. I can see why he doesn't make it in the world us who really care. Why don't you leave me alone why don't you stay away from me . Charlie's back again.
Fiction Life's so unfair, you thought then turned on your TV Life's so unfair you sobbed then picked up the keys You lock your castle door behind you to go for a ride Your shiny car roars as you think of what you've been denied No one understands your mind no one ever tried No one has a clue of what you are inside And I lie but I believe myself and the truth hurts more than anything else Drowning in self pity killing time It helps me to write the words to think about the grime And if you piss me off please don't apologize My anger drives conviction as I proclaim these silly lies If you don't believe me just read between the lines No one has a clue of what's behind these eyes And I lie John John takes a seat so he can wind his watch Not working anymore but it's so good to touch It's the only solid evidence of what he's done and seen It helps him to remember his past life was not a dream It used to tell the time when he was young but time means nothing now he has a clear view of the sun John stopped me on the street today he didn't have that much to say I said I had to get to work but he begged me to stay There was a look in his eyes I'd never seen before I couldn't walk away I knew I wouldn't see him anymore He bummed a smoke looked off into space awhile then he looked into my eyes and unleashed a fleeting smile Dennis it's so good to see you you have no idea just how bad it's getting on the street I try to hide away but they find me every day And I'm so tired of the heat Yesterday I heard the news they sent me a letter said it was suicide but I know better It's Not Me You took my closest friends split my family I gave up everything I had except your memory but I know Someone will hold your hand tonight You won't remember me tonight I wish I could forget so easily Someone will hold your hand tonight Someone will sleep right by your side All I know is it's not me I miss your piercing glare I miss your fearless touch all the little things I never thought would mean so much And after all this time I thought we would forgive I guess there is no turning back you have your life to live I'm here all by myself remembering that you once said that you would always be here "wait and see" Someone will hold your hand tonight you won't remember me tonight I wish I could forget so easily Someone could hold your hand tonight someone could sleep right by your side All I know is it's not me Denial It's funny how a little truth can put things in perspective usually I try to hide from all of life's unpleasantries like corruption, lies and users try to ignore all the abusers but sometimes truth just slaps me in the face And I can't hide try to deny deception but now I see the other side I can't hide try to regain my innocence but something's changed inside Funny how perceptions change when you know secret history suddenly you see right past the thin veil of diplomacy like the smiles that invite glare at you like they're filled with spite the warm handshakes just seem so out of place And I can't hide Every person has a dark side please don't show me yours I don't really think I want to know you can't be trusted they say the truth will set you free but they don't say how deep the cut will be trust dies and paranoia takes its place And I can't hide What You Want Is there something you should tell me? Is there something I should know? I guess I thought that you were happy but your eyes tell me. . . Was the attention all that you needed? Did we miss your silent cries? Is it too late to try? Who do you want to see? Who did you want to be? Is it too late? Can you tell me what you want? Can you tell me what you need? I can't read your mind but would I understand if I could? I can't tell you what you want I can't tell you what you need I can't read your mind but would I understand if I could? I see something in your eyes exactly what I can't tell and I'm still listening exactly why I don't know Can you feel it? Can you find it? Well I can't take it and I can't fake it anymore Daddy Sorry I just had to call don't want to wear you out on me but I need someone to listen you don't even have to speak Sorry to make such a fuss I know these things will happen now and then if you bear with me I promise this will never happen again not again, never again... Daddy won't hurt me This time it was all my fault I'll be a good girl and he won't have to get so mad He does so much for me I know he loves me deep inside From now on I'll be so good I will never hurt his pride I guess I got what I deserved and it does no good to cry From now on I'll be good This time I will really try Thank you I'm so happy now How was your day? I'd really like to see you soon When will you be out this way? I'm so glad that you were home gave me a chance to think it through Let's not mention this again. The only one I ever told was you. Only you... Damage She was working all her life for justice in this world but every time she made some gains someone would kick her down again then damage takes its toll the rising the falling the rising the falling can you get back up again? it's easier to tear apart than build damage has momentum of its own it takes less time to break things down than to wait around until they're grown She was looking all her life for a mate that understood but every time she gave her heart she ended up scarred and alone then damage takes its toll the rising the falling the rising the falling can you get back up again? it's easier to tear apart than build damage has momentum of its own it takes less time to break things down than to wait around until they're grown Too Late When she first apologized it seemed that no one cared no one cared about her shame no one cared about her pain and she could not accept that no one gave her time she said "they will watch me yes by God I'll make them see" My God, I can't believe you're gone it's too late to say "hang on" sometimes you just have to wait this time it's just too late She keeps apologizing every single night every night she wrings her hands every night that's where she stands and I cannot accept that I could have changed her fate if I only would have known My friends keep telling me that it will be all right but they don't know the cost no they don't know what I've lost they keep on talking but to me there's nothing left there is nothing you can say Excuses It was the alcohol you said took away your common sense you don't remember a thing unconsciousness is your defense it's everybody's fault but yours and now we must forgive how can we hold a grudge? when you can't remember what you did but it's not so easy to forgive no matter what you say it's not so easy to forget it won't just go away it will never be the same You'll never drink that much again those intentions sound just great and while I'm glad to see you've learned I think it's just a little too late it's everybody's fault but yours and now we must forgive how can we hold a grudge? when you can't remember what you did Pride and Shame Is there something more I just can't see? I've been so busy trying every day to make ends meet been such a long time since I stopped to smell the coffee now I wonder can I tell the forest from the trees? I know that I feel pride and I know that I fear shame I know I want you to smile when you hear my name seems like a silly game but I know I play it harder than anything I feel alone there's people everywhere some of these people even care once in a while you find someone who really cares but I'm too busy to give them what they need it's not greed it's the fear of failure it keeps me going but when tomorrow comes there's always something more and I can't stop working long enough to wonder what life's for what is it for? am I just a whore? who am I working for? Regret you heard It's no use trying to make sense it doesn't matter anyway There's no one worth the pain no reason left to stay I try to turn it off where did the old me go? How did I get so far away? I just don't know Every act of kindness boils down to lust or greed No one acts from altruism it all comes down to need There's a monster inside my heart He tries to tear my world apart There's a demon inside my head Tells me I'd be better off dead I try to turn it off get back to positive Don't want to drag you down to the street where I live I try to turn it off get back to happy days Pull this barrel from my mouth and look for better ways Every act... Everything you never tried Every time you might have lied Every flaw you tried to hide Every drop you ever cried Every time you've been denied Every tear that ever dried Everything builds up inside in waves of regret miles wide Hey Pete "Hey Pete" she said "it's not too late I still think that you're just great you need to wait in the right place where you'll meet a girl with good taste" "Aw, ma don't you think I tried? I think there's something wrong inside I have no problem making friends but that's where the story ends" I have no problem hanging out then I see a glimpse of doubt and I don't understand what makes them not like me? I'm just trying to be myself but it's so far from everyone else and I don't understand what makes them not like me "Hey Pete I see from what you said that the problem's all in your head and if you want to make a change you must let go of being strange." "Yeah mom the problem's in my brain sometimes I really think I'm insane it goes much deeper than the beard deep down inside me I'm just weird I have no problem hanging out... maybe I'm just weird "You're not weird Pete you're just fine and I'm proud to say you're mine regardless of the strange things you've done I'm so glad that you're my son I really think from what you said that the problem's all in your head and if you want to make a change you must let go of being strange" A.D.D. Mommy what does hyper mean? Teacher says I'll never read She says I need to take a pill so I can learn to sit real still the microwaves did something to our brains we need to take these pills to help us change Please let me take them I don't want to be an idiot Ritalin will make me smart at least that's what my teacher said All the other kids take them, I think I am the only one I need something to slow me down I talk too much cuz I am dumb Mommy what's a deficit? I think it means that I can't sit Disorder of attention and I don't learn the lesson Mommy please help me see the light Don't you know my teacher's always right? Joey's starting on week 4 he's not in trouble any more Susie's ending up week 9 Now she's never out of line Please let me take them I don't want to be an idiot Now Mommy takes my Ritalin there's not enough for me she said All the other moms take them, I think it's not just mine I don't know if she's smarter now but at least she's feeling fine